2010 summed

- started actually getting into dancing, not being shy and uncomfortable about jovial thingies
- freaked out i couldn't go to bellingham
- job at tims, first job ever, first time totally supporting self in sackville over summer
- living with someone I was in a relationship with for the first time ever- realizing what a glue that makes
- depression
- 3 months of obsession and embarrassment and sad frustrating confusion
- working on being less of a bleeding heart/ dramatic type. Working on making do with what is given and being happy for it and trying to have the best perspective possible
- considering that being single isn't just a period between relationships and that i should only really rely on myself and shouldn't assume i'd live with someone for the rest of my life or that that would always be the best choice
- trying to be more strong than i got taught
- feeling like a traveler still
- strange increase in confidence and bravery
- got the balls to switch to fine arts from sciences
- "you can't sit around waiting to be wounded"
- so for now, i feel a little like i dislike sitting around. caught up in school work.
- pretty good grades!
- shifted from seeing myself as a lost child to more of an older mentor type for myself, which is very good
- sometimes i think i make myself be too tough, but it's better than the alternative
- lost a lot of fear
- need to avoid cynicism, fatalism, bitterness
- still feel more isolated than i should
- perspective is key
- and doing work
yup.