Man
I have a crazy capacity for guilt.
But I have every right to date someone, it's been long enough I think. I just feel like I'm somehow being pretty inappropriate. Every little thing makes me guilty.
I worry about if I'm being a good person all the time.
I feel like I spend too much money
I feel like I'm too confident
I feel like I'm simultaneously too fragile and durable
I find my conception that I am not a fully formed version of myself unless I'm single interesting
Since I date anyways
I'm trying hard to do the best job right now and I don't even know what that means.
I feel like I don't have enough time.
Vaaaaaague
I don't feel able to connect with many people right now
I don't know if I'm a nice person at heart. I think it's really dumb I'm worrying about this. I wish I could just tattoo sorry on my head, but obviously it wouldn't be sincere enough.
My brain is juggling lots of thoughts.
But at the same time I am proud of how many thoughts and worries I could juggle, I am not accepting. I hope I can just improve from here
Often my mental space is either blank or frenzied.
I feel best when I'm being creative.
Summer is scary. So unstructured.