Wednesday, May 4, 2011
In the summer I often get a distinct feeling that I am very alone, kind of off the the side while other people are sharing in this miraculous atmosphere of friendship I forgot to foster all school year. I get depressed and aimless and anxious really easily and start being a grump around boys I'm dating because I feel like I'm a pitstop as they have a more exciting life than me. So... just. in general very isolated and confused and sad and irritated with myself.
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I imagine that's exactly how I would have become staying in Sackville, too. Trying to be independent probably feels scary and lonely a lot at first. I admit I'm still very attached to the security of my nuclear family. For what it's worth, I admire you hoofing it on your own despite the scary/isolated times! I hope I can visit Sackville sometime in the warmer months.
ReplyDeleteAlso being in a fulfilling relationship doesn't help with maintaining a wide range of friendships usually, particularly for an introvert like me (and maybe you sometimes?). It's just so tempting to pour all of your time into your one favorite person. I feel like I forgot to nurture a lot of my friendships too... D:
ReplyDeleteit's nice to know I am not alooone in feeling kinda funny and isolated! <3
ReplyDeleteI never thought I was that shy, but I'm feeling kinda scaredy cat-ish right now about finding other people to hang out with >.<