guys,

you are all champs.
might not know it
but ya' are.
you can do it
i know it's all shitty
but whatever
not really too shitty
and it'll make you strong
so believe in yourself
life already is abrasive sorta sometimes
so take care of yourselves
do what you have to do
YOUR DREAMS AND STUFF
don't worry
whatevs
stuff is okay

boy i am dumb
i should go to bed.
i got hives all on my neck and shoulders from kitties. ahhhh!
today i talked to a woman who is all up in the catholic community
and she listened
she was kind and polite
she even let me tell her abortion was complicated and weird
and was like "that okay, i know"
and i was like
gosh. maybe it is cool that there are homegrown communities of people who meet just to do good. just to try and help each other and do things right and support each other.
it was nice to not feel bullied or exiled by churchiness
but like they accepted crazy pondering and pain
and wouldn't engulf me
i think i'm going to do more charity things
blarg

ffff

will i be kk this summer
hope so

saw a pretty boy in the pawn shop
i wanted to skate by him
i wanted to go up to him and say he was pretty
he was hella rugged
except for his angular poochy lip face
GARRRRG HOTNESS
oh well.
i walked in the other direction instead
and took a long way home
so lame.

so many zits.
i'm gonna have money soon
i want to be BRAVE
SURE OF MYSELF
and stuff

i think

i like helping people
should i be a therapist
or get a BFA
or what
oh life
oh life stop being ambiguous

sometimes i want lots of babies.

AM I LIVING THE LIFE I COULD RIGHT NOW
no way to really tell

sometimes want to be a vegan/
love cheese so much